Identity

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Hello again. It’s been a while; last week I was moving back home for the summer, and this past week has just been a whirlwind of starting a new job and trying to settle into my life here at home again. There really is no place quite like home.

A couple days ago, I started a summer discipleship course. One of the speakers honed in on how we must know our true identities and be able to hear God in order to grow closer to Him. This world constantly tries to tell me that I am not worthy of being loved, that no one could ever or should ever love me. This world tells me that unless I’m a doctor, engineer, lawyer, or successful businessman, I’m useless. But Jesus wants us to get rid of these false identities immediately, because they’re not real. This is not who we truly are. Yes, to the world, we may be all these things, but to God, He has given us and created us with a much greater, much more real identity. I may be broken, but He still receives me, pushing my brokenness aside, and gives me a new name. God calls us the opposite of what the world calls us, because He wants us to be lifted up. He calls me beloved. Continue reading “Identity”

Dear Younger Me

What would you tell your younger self if you could go back in time? What do you wish someone would’ve told you, if they really knew how you were feeling and what you were going through then?

Dear Younger Me,

You’re angsty, and you should acknowledge that. But more importantly, maybe slow down to ask yourself why. I know you must think you’re so on fire for God, ready to balance everything – church, dance, internships, and, oh yeah, classes. But you can’t do it all, and you can’t even balance what you end up doing. And you’re gonna freak out. Continue reading “Dear Younger Me”

Life | No. 11

People told me sophomore year of college would be tough. I always laughed. I always thought I could overcome anything. That’s just pride though. We think we can do anything, be anything, if we just try hard enough. Sophomore year is one of those things where you think, “How hard can it really be?” before you get kicked in the face by life. I have no idea how sophomore year would’ve been without God in my life. I shudder to even consider the possibility. Continue reading “Life | No. 11”

Promises

What’s ironic is that those who don’t have the courage to take risks and those who do, experience the same amount of fear in life. The only difference is that those who don’t take chances worry about trivial things. If you’re going to have to overcome your fear and doubts anyway, you might as well make it count. [John C. Maxwell]

I heard this quote today during a message, and like many other moments in life, it was not a coincidence that it paired so perfectly with a song that’s been on my mind recently, ‘Your Promises’ by Elevation Worship. We only reduce God’s perfectly crafted message to us to a coincidence when we don’t take the time to reflect on our lives. That being said, I think His message to me now is to take a risk. Seek first His kingdom, worry less about all the other things. Seek first, and all these other things I no longer worry about will be added to me. Continue reading “Promises”

Musings From the Bus Bench | No. 1

What I failed to calculate is the cost of my fierce individuality: the loss of emotional resources that turned out to be critical for enjoying my achievements and successes. [Dr. Will Miller, Dr. Glenn Sparks]

In this day and age, it’s hard to remember what life was like before we were online all the time. What would I be doing before bed if there was no Netflix or YouTube? What would I be doing when I’m alone waiting in line? What would I do to show my friends all the awesome food I’m having or the awesome hike I went on or the awesome life I live? (Please note the sarcasm as actually a satire on what might actually be a half-truth about our thought processes.)

All these different needs and compulsions we experience now are purely self-made. We have no innate desire to do these things. They didn’t exist before the age of technology, and we were never longing for this. This is not the way we were meant to live. Being online should not be the norm; we should not be at a point where we’re only “on” and functioning properly if we’re on our phones or computers. Continue reading “Musings From the Bus Bench | No. 1”

The Heart’s Mind | No. 12

All I am Lord here before You
Reaching out for more
You’re the promise never failing
You are my reward,
Jesus, You are my reward

I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I’ve lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I’ll say
You are worth it all

 

[‘Worth It All’ – Worship Central]