Life | No. 13 [Holy, Holy, Holy]

Hey y’all. It’s been quite some time since I last posted. About two months now. So much has happened, and I’m not sure why I never turned to writing a post to help me reflect. But I’m back, ready to declare to God what exactly has been going on in my heart lately.

This past quarter at school, a little voice tugged on my heart, ‘You need to sacrifice something.’ Sacrifice. When I think of sacrifice, I tend to focus more on what I’m losing, rather than what I’m gaining. I’ve grown too attached to comfort, but above all, calling the own shots in my life, discounting God’s rightful place in my heart. I don’t think God’s looking for me to sacrifice anymore; I think He just wants my heart.

And one called to another and said: ‘Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of Hosts; the whole earth is full of His glory!’ And the foundations of the thresholds shook at the voice of him who called, and the house was filled with smoke. And I said: ‘Woe is me! For I am lost; for I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.’ [Isaiah 6:3-5]

God is holy, holy, holy. Holiness is not just purity, but a cut above, set apart, for another purpose. Holiness, in essence, is other-worldly; is Godly. Holiness is central to who God is, above His love, grace, kindness, justice. Perhaps we can love without knowing who God is. Perhaps we can have mercy on others without acknowledging God. But we cannot be holy or know what and who holiness is apart from God. To deny God of His holiness in our minds is to not know who He truly is. And when we don’t truly know who He is, we don’t know we are, or why we need a relationship with Him. Continue reading “Life | No. 13 [Holy, Holy, Holy]”

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Don’t You Know? | Life No. 13

Don’t you know, I am.
Not I was, not I will be. I am.
I am your God.
I am your Savior.
I am your Friend.
I am good.

Don’t you know, in Me, you are.
You are beloved.
You are treasured.
You are validated.
You are worth dying for.

You were lost. Scared. Reckless.
You don’t need to be anymore.

I met a woman recently, at the very park I’m sitting at now to write this. After hearing our jam session, ending with the old classic, ‘How Great is Our God,’ she approached my friends and I with her daughter, wondering if we were Korean. We may have disappointed her a little with the fact that only one of us was Korean, but it was enough for her; she proceeded to ask us what church we all go to. Once that door opened, all her church-related pain flooded out, to the point that none of us really knew what to say to her, whether to stop her. We’re all a little awkward like that. We just knew we needed to reach out to her. Continue reading “Don’t You Know? | Life No. 13”

The Great Commission | No. 2

‘Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?’ And He said to him, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets.’ [Matthew 22:36-40]

Coming back from a mission trip, I was convinced that missions was the ultimate goal in life – to preach the gospel to all nations so that the end will come, as is promised in Matthew 24. After talking with a friend about our different mission trips, he told me that the idea of a Christian going on mission trips is redundant, since the definition of being a Christian should be missions. Christian = missions. However, after a few weeks of discerning what my heart felt burdened to write about, I’ve seen how our calling is even simpler than that. Continue reading “The Great Commission | No. 2”

The Great Commission | No. 1

And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” [Matthew 28:18-20]

Go. Jesus’ last words to His disciples were surely important. He said all nations. Not even just nations as defined by us now, since these geographic lines have changed even in the past century; all nations means make disciples out of everyone in the world. Every single person in every single people group in every corner of the world. His command to “go” demands action – finding these people of all nations and preaching the gospel to them. We’re not all meant to be long-term missionaries, but I do think it’s worth going on one short-term mission just to see if maybe this is your calling.

I just came back from a two week mission trip to Asia, and I cannot believe how much God is moving even in what we think are “Godless” countries. Continue reading “The Great Commission | No. 1”

The Heart’s Mind | No. 14

Following up on last week’s post on drinking from polluted pot holes, I came across ‘The Only One’ by Jimmy Needham, which captures everything I was feeling:

I’ve drank water from sewers and gutters,
Too shameful to utter.
But You’re not like the others.

So if You’re the bread then fill me up. 
If You’re the water fill my cup. 
‘Til lesser loves are washed out to sea.
Why can’t I see You’re the only one?
You’re the only one,
Father, Spirit, Son, 
Who satisfies me. 

Sometimes it’s almost shameful to admit the different ambitious dreams we’ve been secretly (or not-so-secretly) pursuing. It’s shameful because we think we should know better by now that these things don’t satisfy. However, each time these desires for something other than God shifts (such as focusing on career to focusing on relationships), we forget the lesson we learned and think it’ll be “different this time.” Drinking from different polluted pot holes does not make them any less polluted just because it’s different. God is so holy that even a tinge of any essence that is not Him makes the entire source of water polluted. Continue reading “The Heart’s Mind | No. 14”

Life | No. 12

Today’s post is an honest reflection on my life. Lord, I pray that even if You don’t save me from all my temptations now, I’ll still have faith in the fact that You could if that was what’s best.

Recently, I started reading a book called A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23, which is quite self-explanatory — the author, having been a shepherd, provides some insight into each line of Psalm 23. Focusing on the line, ‘He leads me beside quiet waters,’ he notes, ‘When sheep are thirsty they become restless and set out in search of water. If not led to the good water supplies of clean, pure water, they will often end up drinking from the polluted pot holes.’ I am that foolish, restless sheep focused only on instant gratification. I wish I wasn’t. Continue reading “Life | No. 12”

Identity

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Hello again. It’s been a while; last week I was moving back home for the summer, and this past week has just been a whirlwind of starting a new job and trying to settle into my life here at home again. There really is no place quite like home.

A couple days ago, I started a summer discipleship course. One of the speakers honed in on how we must know our true identities and be able to hear God in order to grow closer to Him. This world constantly tries to tell me that I am not worthy of being loved, that no one could ever or should ever love me. This world tells me that unless I’m a doctor, engineer, lawyer, or successful businessman, I’m useless. But Jesus wants us to get rid of these false identities immediately, because they’re not real. This is not who we truly are. Yes, to the world, we may be all these things, but to God, He has given us and created us with a much greater, much more real identity. I may be broken, but He still receives me, pushing my brokenness aside, and gives me a new name. God calls us the opposite of what the world calls us, because He wants us to be lifted up. He calls me beloved. Continue reading “Identity”