The Heart’s Mind | No. 14

Following up on last week’s post on drinking from polluted pot holes, I came across ‘The Only One’ by Jimmy Needham, which captures everything I was feeling:

I’ve drank water from sewers and gutters,
Too shameful to utter.
But You’re not like the others.

So if You’re the bread then fill me up. 
If You’re the water fill my cup. 
‘Til lesser loves are washed out to sea.
Why can’t I see You’re the only one?
You’re the only one,
Father, Spirit, Son, 
Who satisfies me. 

Sometimes it’s almost shameful to admit the different ambitious dreams we’ve been secretly (or not-so-secretly) pursuing. It’s shameful because we think we should know better by now that these things don’t satisfy. However, each time these desires for something other than God shifts (such as focusing on career to focusing on relationships), we forget the lesson we learned and think it’ll be “different this time.” Drinking from different polluted pot holes does not make them any less polluted just because it’s different. God is so holy that even a tinge of any essence that is not Him makes the entire source of water polluted. Continue reading “The Heart’s Mind | No. 14”

Life | No. 12

Today’s post is an honest reflection on my life. Lord, I pray that even if You don’t save me from all my temptations now, I’ll still have faith in the fact that You could if that was what’s best.

Recently, I started reading a book called A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23, which is quite self-explanatory — the author, having been a shepherd, provides some insight into each line of Psalm 23. Focusing on the line, ‘He leads me beside quiet waters,’ he notes, ‘When sheep are thirsty they become restless and set out in search of water. If not led to the good water supplies of clean, pure water, they will often end up drinking from the polluted pot holes.’ I am that foolish, restless sheep focused only on instant gratification. I wish I wasn’t. Continue reading “Life | No. 12”

Identity

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Hello again. It’s been a while; last week I was moving back home for the summer, and this past week has just been a whirlwind of starting a new job and trying to settle into my life here at home again. There really is no place quite like home.

A couple days ago, I started a summer discipleship course. One of the speakers honed in on how we must know our true identities and be able to hear God in order to grow closer to Him. This world constantly tries to tell me that I am not worthy of being loved, that no one could ever or should ever love me. This world tells me that unless I’m a doctor, engineer, lawyer, or successful businessman, I’m useless. But Jesus wants us to get rid of these false identities immediately, because they’re not real. This is not who we truly are. Yes, to the world, we may be all these things, but to God, He has given us and created us with a much greater, much more real identity. I may be broken, but He still receives me, pushing my brokenness aside, and gives me a new name. God calls us the opposite of what the world calls us, because He wants us to be lifted up. He calls me beloved. Continue reading “Identity”

Dear Younger Me

What would you tell your younger self if you could go back in time? What do you wish someone would’ve told you, if they really knew how you were feeling and what you were going through then?

Dear Younger Me,

You’re angsty, and you should acknowledge that. But more importantly, maybe slow down to ask yourself why. I know you must think you’re so on fire for God, ready to balance everything – church, dance, internships, and, oh yeah, classes. But you can’t do it all, and you can’t even balance what you end up doing. And you’re gonna freak out. Continue reading “Dear Younger Me”

Life | No. 11

People told me sophomore year of college would be tough. I always laughed. I always thought I could overcome anything. That’s just pride though. We think we can do anything, be anything, if we just try hard enough. Sophomore year is one of those things where you think, “How hard can it really be?” before you get kicked in the face by life. I have no idea how sophomore year would’ve been without God in my life. I shudder to even consider the possibility. Continue reading “Life | No. 11”

Promises

What’s ironic is that those who don’t have the courage to take risks and those who do, experience the same amount of fear in life. The only difference is that those who don’t take chances worry about trivial things. If you’re going to have to overcome your fear and doubts anyway, you might as well make it count. [John C. Maxwell]

I heard this quote today during a message, and like many other moments in life, it was not a coincidence that it paired so perfectly with a song that’s been on my mind recently, ‘Your Promises’ by Elevation Worship. We only reduce God’s perfectly crafted message to us to a coincidence when we don’t take the time to reflect on our lives. That being said, I think His message to me now is to take a risk. Seek first His kingdom, worry less about all the other things. Seek first, and all these other things I no longer worry about will be added to me. Continue reading “Promises”