Life | No. 13 [Holy, Holy, Holy]

Hey y’all. It’s been quite some time since I last posted. About two months now. So much has happened, and I’m not sure why I never turned to writing a post to help me reflect. But I’m back, ready to declare to God what exactly has been going on in my heart lately.

This past quarter at school, a little voice tugged on my heart, ‘You need to sacrifice something.’ Sacrifice. When I think of sacrifice, I tend to focus more on what I’m losing, rather than what I’m gaining. I’ve grown too attached to comfort, but above all, calling the own shots in my life, discounting God’s rightful place in my heart. I don’t think God’s looking for me to sacrifice anymore; I think He just wants my heart.

And one called to another and said: ‘Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of Hosts; the whole earth is full of His glory!’ And the foundations of the thresholds shook at the voice of him who called, and the house was filled with smoke. And I said: ‘Woe is me! For I am lost; for I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.’ [Isaiah 6:3-5]

God is holy, holy, holy. Holiness is not just purity, but a cut above, set apart, for another purpose. Holiness, in essence, is other-worldly; is Godly. Holiness is central to who God is, above His love, grace, kindness, justice. Perhaps we can love without knowing who God is. Perhaps we can have mercy on others without acknowledging God. But we cannot be holy or know what and who holiness is apart from God. To deny God of His holiness in our minds is to not know who He truly is. And when we don’t truly know who He is, we don’t know we are, or why we need a relationship with Him. Continue reading “Life | No. 13 [Holy, Holy, Holy]”

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The Great Commission | No. 2

‘Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?’ And He said to him, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets.’ [Matthew 22:36-40]

Coming back from a mission trip, I was convinced that missions was the ultimate goal in life – to preach the gospel to all nations so that the end will come, as is promised in Matthew 24. After talking with a friend about our different mission trips, he told me that the idea of a Christian going on mission trips is redundant, since the definition of being a Christian should be missions. Christian = missions. However, after a few weeks of discerning what my heart felt burdened to write about, I’ve seen how our calling is even simpler than that. Continue reading “The Great Commission | No. 2”

Higher

Christian life is a higher dimensional life.

I heard this expression today; it was one of those things you hear and wonder why you never thought about it that way before. Christ calls us to higher and different places we never dreamed or believed we would ever be at.

I’m still learning to count the cost. Obviously, a higher dimensional life sounds like something I should want, and now that I’ve gotten a taste of it, I can’t imagine going back to my old life of dulled emotions and fruitless endeavors. He expects us to suffer if we take His callings seriously. But there is hope and a reason for all our suffering.

He calls us into an abundant life. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly [John 10:10]. But with the life He promises us, not only is there more adventure, but more ups and downs as well; all the joys are so much greater, but there is also so much more intensity of pain as we begin to suffer for His sake and experience the same suffering He feels when we sin against Him. Let us all aspire to live in the higher dimension and not settle for less.

Fruits of Our Lives

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Please forgive the terrible drawing and photograph.

Belief is not a doctrine; it demands expression. People can see what we believe based on how we live our lives. If I believe, as my drawing shows, that I am worthless, I bear the fruit of insecurity. If I believe that I need to work for everything in life, my life is filled with competition, dissatisfaction, emptiness. If I believe that everything is justifiable in the end, I will be reckless in my ambition as I try to prove my worth. Continue reading “Fruits of Our Lives”

The Cross

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At a conference I went to last weekend, the pastor illustrated our Christian walk through the above diagram. The first picture reflects how the greatness of the cross increases as we see our own sinfulness more and more over time, compared to God’s holiness. The bottom picture depicts a life where we begin to drift away from God, slowly justifying our own sinfulness as not being that bad, while also being unable to truly see how set apart and different God’s standard is; this is when the cross shrinks, when we don’t see the difference between holiness and sinfulness anymore, and we no longer see a need to be saved. May the weight and wonder of the cross grow in each of us.

 

Holy, there is no one like You. There is none beside You. Open up my eyes in wonder. Show me who You are and fill me with Your heart and lead me in Your love to those around me. [‘Build My Life’ – Housefires]

Missions. Finally.

‘When Christ calls a man, he bids him come and die.’ [Dietrich Bonhoeffer] 

As a Christian, our first and foremost thought must be a global vision – God’s commission for us to go and make disciples for all nations. ‘Go’ means we must never be passive and comfortable where we are, but rather, willing to uproot ourselves for the sake of the gospel.

I think God is calling me to a certain country, let’s call it A. A has been calling me for a while now, and I was disappointed when my parents told me that I couldn’t go. Especially in light of the fact that 90% of missionaries/ministers serve the already reached populations, whereas only 10% go to the unreached. They don’t even have the chance to decide for themselves if God is who He says He is. Even if they have a sense that they are longing for more, they may never know the Truth of who that something more is. All because we do not go to them. Continue reading “Missions. Finally.”

Jesus Wept.

I rationalize. A lot. I think I’m a unique individual whose experiences are just so different that no one can possibly understand. I make plans for every aspect of my life; I make schedules at the beginning of each quarter for every single day so I know what events/meetings I have to go to and what work I have to get done. I have a detailed plan for my four years in college so I know exactly what classes to take to be able to double major and minor and still graduate on time. I know I want to take a gap year to do missions before going to law school. I’m not really sure when it got this bad; I definitely didn’t plan like this in high school. I’ve gotten more and more obsessive about my future as I’ve gotten older. And I don’t like that.

‘God, You don’t understand. I have to take all these classes [so I can seem like I’m busy all the time]. I have to go to law school [or I won’t amount to anything]. I have to have my schedule planned out [because I can’t risk getting behind in life]. I have to plan this and do everything by myself [because I can only depend on myself].’ I make excuses about everything I do, refusing to allow God into this controlling nature I have. How can that be, if He is to be Lord of my life? Perhaps He isn’t just yet. Continue reading “Jesus Wept.”