The Heart’s Mind | No. 13

Here I am, down on my knees again. Surrendering all. Surrendering all. [‘I Surrender’ – Hillsong]

Dear Younger Me

What would you tell your younger self if you could go back in time? What do you wish someone would’ve told you, if they really knew how you were feeling and what you were going through then?

Dear Younger Me,

You’re angsty, and you should acknowledge that. But more importantly, maybe slow down to ask yourself why. I know you must think you’re so on fire for God, ready to balance everything – church, dance, internships, and, oh yeah, classes. But you can’t do it all, and you can’t even balance what you end up doing. And you’re gonna freak out. Continue reading “Dear Younger Me”

Life | No. 11

People told me sophomore year of college would be tough. I always laughed. I always thought I could overcome anything. That’s just pride though. We think we can do anything, be anything, if we just try hard enough. Sophomore year is one of those things where you think, “How hard can it really be?” before you get kicked in the face by life. I have no idea how sophomore year would’ve been without God in my life. I shudder to even consider the possibility. Continue reading “Life | No. 11”


What’s ironic is that those who don’t have the courage to take risks and those who do, experience the same amount of fear in life. The only difference is that those who don’t take chances worry about trivial things. If you’re going to have to overcome your fear and doubts anyway, you might as well make it count. [John C. Maxwell]

I heard this quote today during a message, and like many other moments in life, it was not a coincidence that it paired so perfectly with a song that’s been on my mind recently, ‘Your Promises’ by Elevation Worship. We only reduce God’s perfectly crafted message to us to a coincidence when we don’t take the time to reflect on our lives. That being said, I think His message to me now is to take a risk. Seek first His kingdom, worry less about all the other things. Seek first, and all these other things I no longer worry about will be added to me. Continue reading “Promises”

Musings From the Bus Bench | No. 1

What I failed to calculate is the cost of my fierce individuality: the loss of emotional resources that turned out to be critical for enjoying my achievements and successes. [Dr. Will Miller, Dr. Glenn Sparks]

In this day and age, it’s hard to remember what life was like before we were online all the time. What would I be doing before bed if there was no Netflix or YouTube? What would I be doing when I’m alone waiting in line? What would I do to show my friends all the awesome food I’m having or the awesome hike I went on or the awesome life I live? (Please note the sarcasm as actually a satire on what might actually be a half-truth about our thought processes.)

All these different needs and compulsions we experience now are purely self-made. We have no innate desire to do these things. They didn’t exist before the age of technology, and we were never longing for this. This is not the way we were meant to live. Being online should not be the norm; we should not be at a point where we’re only “on” and functioning properly if we’re on our phones or computers. Continue reading “Musings From the Bus Bench | No. 1”

The Heart’s Mind | No. 12

All I am Lord here before You
Reaching out for more
You’re the promise never failing
You are my reward,
Jesus, You are my reward

I let go of all I have just to have all of You
And no matter what the cost I will follow You
Jesus everything I’ve lost I have found in You
When I finally reach the end I’ll say
You are worth it all


[‘Worth It All’ – Worship Central]


Christian life is a higher dimensional life.

I heard this expression today; it was one of those things you hear and wonder why you never thought about it that way before. Christ calls us to higher and different places we never dreamed or believed we would ever be at.

I’m still learning to count the cost. Obviously, a higher dimensional life sounds like something I should want, and now that I’ve gotten a taste of it, I can’t imagine going back to my old life of dulled emotions and fruitless endeavors. He expects us to suffer if we take His callings seriously. But there is hope and a reason for all our suffering.

He calls us into an abundant life. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly [John 10:10]. But with the life He promises us, not only is there more adventure, but more ups and downs as well; all the joys are so much greater, but there is also so much more intensity of pain as we begin to suffer for His sake and experience the same suffering He feels when we sin against Him. Let us all aspire to live in the higher dimension and not settle for less.